Shaking...

I'm finally back up to the right dosage on my meds. I'd forgotten how much I dislike the side effects. I've started having the really vivid dreams, and right now, I feel like I'm going to fall over. They'll pass, but I'm tired and right now...

*sigh* I don't know why I bother even mentioning how much I miss John any more. It's not like it's any surprise, and it doesn't get better.

I would love to have my husband here, so I can fall over in tears, and realize that he'll still love me, even if my hands shake and I'm dizzy.

'Scuse me while I whine.

I *will* get to church in Austin this weekend. I will.