Right now I hurt....

And I don't know when it will get better. We've only got six months left, and since we've been playing this game for about 23 months at this point, we could do it standing on our heads, but oh my heart hurts. I'm so tired of saying goodbye, and I know that we got married in spite of the looming separation, but still, it aches.

He is my best friend. He is the person I want to wake up with (although we could work on the time we wake up...) and the person I want to see before I close my eyes at night.